I am sick, but getting better, alone
So, tonight I went out to dinner with my mom who is still in town. I am happy she is town, but also upset because she needs to get out of here so I can start living my new life as a college student. This is just making me homesick, her being here. But it is good. Today my eyes started acting up again, and so it was good that she was nearby the help me out. Although she could have done it all from home, the comfort was better. I am happy she decided to stay two nights instead of 0 because of my sickness. I am happy she is still here, although I know it is no good for me. I should get things being here as a student without my mommy nearby.
Yes, today my eyes are starting to hurt me with the redness and shit again. So fucking annoying. If it conjuncts tomorrow, I am going to get so fucking upset. Not only are the hand washing stations around here not as abundant as they were at my last place of residency where I needed it. I cannot touch my eye at all here, or I will shurly fuck the whole place up. It was easy not to make out with anyone or touch my face area, but not to rub one's eyes is very difficult. Sometimes the greatest pleasure in the world can be gotten from that simply rubbing.
My mouth is better, i can eat food now. But not acidic foods, they will still fuck my tongue up. But, the water will cause only a very small/mild sting. But, I had a big lamb dinner tonight with some potatoes and beans, and ate some of my mom's pasta, so I am ready for a lot of food. Although it was a chore to eat the bread at the beginning of the meal. Tomorrow my tongue will better, but not all better and that is expected. Tonight it was fine, I could eat, I have nutrients and calories inside of me, which should help me further with all the getting better and such.
Tonight I got "Back to the Future" and "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure" posters along with a large postcard of Simpsons theme saying "Springfield" on it. There is no room on the walls for the posters, not even the BTTF one. I could put it on the ceiling, but it sort of loses a certain appeal when it is done up like that. Sadness fills my heart. Damn.
And again the eyes, the eyes are hurting and I should put some more drops in them. What is possibly wrong with them?
Whatever is wrong with them, it is causing me to be so fucking upset and alone. I cannot do anything much because I get tired, or I don't want to spread anything that I got, this is so fucking harsh. I really don't like this that much.